LIFE IS NOT A GAME !

I GUESS I'M STRANGE, BECAUSE I DON'T THINK I'VE LOOKED AT LIFE THE WAY I'VE HEARD OTHERS LOOK AT IT.

SINCE AS FAR BACK AS I CAN REMEMBER, I'VE ALWAYS WISHED I WAS NEVER BORN.

YOU MAY ASK WHY WOULD I SAY SUCH A THING, OR WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, AM I DEPRESSED, SUICIDAL, OR SUFFERING FROM SOME SORT OF IN BALANCE ?

THOUGH I'VE NOT BEEN OFFICIALLY DIAGNOSED, MY SELF ASSESSMENT IS A POSITIVE ONE.

GOD HAS PLACED SOME SORT OF SUPERNATURAL REALIZATION IN MY DNA THAT INFORMED ME EVEN AS A CHILD THAT LIFE WAS NOT A GAME, OR TO BE PLAYED WITH BECAUSE THE REPERCUSSION'S WERE DIRE AND ETERNAL.

SIMPLY PUT, I NEVER WANTED THE RESPONSIBILITY OF LIVING THE LIFE THAT WOULD ALLOW ME TO EVADE ETERNAL PUNISHMENT.

AS A CHILD I HAD KNOW IDEA OF WHAT ETERNAL PUNISHMENT MAYBE, BUT I DID KNOW IT EXISTED.

I ALSO NEVER THOUGHT IT FAIR, AN INDIVIDUAL THAT NEVER ASK TO BE BROUGHT HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE WOULD NOW BE BURDENED WITH THE TASK OF HOW I LEAVE HERE.

STUCK WITH RESPONSIBLE LIVING, OR FACE THE CONSEQUENCES.

IF THIS DILEMMA ALONE WEREN'T BAD ENOUGH, ISSUES MULTIPLY OVER TIME, AS DOES ONE'S RESPONSIBILITIES.

WE GAIN SPOUSES, CHILDREN, FRIENDS, JOBS, ETC...... THESE ARE PEOPLE YOU DON'T WANT TO FAIL, DISAPPOINT, OR LET DOWN.

WE WANT TO BE ROLE MODELS, MENTORS, EXAMPLES AND ANY OTHER POSITIVE IMPACT WE BELIEVE WE ARE TO BE FOR THESE CHERISHED INDIVIDUALS.

THEN GOD WILL HIT US BELOW THE BELT WITH THE SUCKER PUNCH OF ALL SUCKER PUNCHES, WHEN HE CALLS US INTO POSITIONS OF MINISTRY.

IF EVER THERE WERE A BURDEN TO BEAR, IT IS TO KNOW THAT GOD IS COUNTING ON YOU, PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AT YOU, AND YOU ARE NO LONGER RESPONSIBLE FOR THE WELL-BEING OF YOUR SOUL ONLY.

EVERY SOUL THE LORD PLACES IN YOUR LIFE MINISTERIALLY WILL BECOME A NEW REASON TO FEEL THE BURDEN OF LIFE'S NOT BEING A GAME.

WHAT A MESS, AND A BURDEN THIS UNREQUESTED LIFE CAN BE.

WHY DOES GOD ALLOW, AND MAYBE EVEN DO THIS TO US WHOM HE CLAIMS TO LOVE SO ?

IF YOU'RE AWAITING FOR AN ANSWER FROM ME IT COULD BE AWHILE, BECAUSE OFF-HAND I JUST DON'T HAVE IT.

THIS IS ONE OF THOSE THINGS WE WILL "UNDERSTAND BETTER, BYE, AND BYE".

I'M SIMPLY AIRING OUT MY QUESTIONS, AND DISSATISFACTION, IN HOPES IT WILL BE BOTH CATHARTIC FOR ME, AS WELL AS BENEFICIAL FOR YOU !

IN CLOSING, I GUESS ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT I LOVE, AND TRUST GOD, THEREFORE I BELIEVE IN HIS PROCESS, EVEN THOUGH I DON'T AGREE, OR ENJOY IT, I WILL BY THE GRACE OF GOD CONTINUE TO ENDURE UNTIL THE MY END.

THE WORD ENDURE SAYS IT ALL, DOESN'T IT ?


2DAYS PROPHETIC ADMONITION: EVEN THOUGH NONE OF US HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH OUR BEING HERE, WE HAVE GOT TO BELIEVE IN GOD, AND IN THE FACT THAT IF HE SELECTED US FOR WHATEVER IT IS WE ARE FACING, HE KNOWS WHATS BEST.

SAINTS WE MUST STOP LIVING OUR LIVES AS THOUGH IT WERE SIMPLY A GAME VOID OF WINNERS, AND LOSERS.

THERE WILL NEVER BE A BIGGER WINNER THEN THE CHILD OF GOD THAT GETS THIS JOURNEY RIGHT.

NOR WILL THERE EVER BE A BIGGER LOSER THEN THE ONE THAT FAILS TO HEED THIS WARNING, AND CONTINUES TO LIVE AS THOUGH THEY HAVE IMMUNITY TO GOD'S JUDGEMENT.

REMEMBER WHETHER WE ASKED TO BE HERE OR NOT, WE WILL ALL CERTAINLY LEAVE HERE, BUT HOW ?