HOW SAD GOD MUST BE TO HAVE CHILDREN LIKE US.
WE'RE UNAPPRECIATIVE, INCONSIDERATE, DISOBEDIENT, REBELLIOUS, OBSTINATE, AND EMBARRASSING TOO NAME BUT A FEW THINGS.
I KNOW HOW MY HEART HURT WHENEVER MY CHILDREN DISAPPOINTED ME, AND I MUST SAY THAT I WAS BLESSED TO HAVE CHILDREN THAT SELDOM DID DISAPPOINT ME.
ON THE RARE OCCASION THAT THEY DID DISAPPOINT, ALL OF THE HURT WAS USUALLY MANIFESTED INCORRECTLY IN ANGER, AND ALL OF THE ANGER I COULD MUSTER UP COULD NEVER EXPRESS ALL OF THE HURT IT WAS ATTEMPTING TO DISPLAY.
IN ALL OF MY INEPT LOVE, I LOVED THEM WITH ALL I KNEW WHICH OF COURSE AT IT'S VERY BEST PALED IN COMPARISON TO GOD'S LOVE FOR US.
YET, I DID LOVE THEM, AND DISCOVERED THAT AS LONG AS WE LOVE, WE WILL HURT.
AS LONG AS WE ARE LOVED, WE WILL HURT OTHERS.
I AM A LONELY MAN NOW THAT MY DAUGHTERS ARE NO LONGER A PART OF MY DAILY LIFE.
MY YOUNGEST IS NOW MARRIED, AND FOCUSING ON BEING A WIFE AS SHE SHOULD, WHILE MY OLDEST DAUGHTER PASSED AWAY AND CREATED A VOID THAT IS BEYOND FILLING, AND A HURT THAT DEFIES EXPRESSION.
AS I SIT AND REMINISCE OF DAYS GONE BY, AND OPPORTUNITIES MISSED, I WONDER IF I'LL EVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT THEM IN MY DAILY LIFE.
I'M FIGHTING BACK TEARS AS I WRITE THIS, AND I MISS THEM SO MUCH, YET I CAN NEVER CHANGE WHAT WAS, AND WHAT IS.
WITHOUT GOD, I WOULD HAVE LONG AGO LOST MY BALANCE, AND FALLEN TO WHO KNOWS WHERE, BUT GOD IS MY FRIEND, AND HE HAS HELD ME THROUGH IT ALL.
2DAYS PROPHETIC ADMONITION: LET'S IMAGINE HOW GOD FEELS ABOUT OUR ATTITUDES, REBELLION, STUBBORNNESS, AND DISOBEDIENCE, AND LET'S IMPROVE OUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIM RIGHT NOW.
IF I, IN MY IMPERFECT, INCOMPLETE LOVE CAN HURT, AND FEEL LIKE THIS, LETS IMAGINE GOD'S HEART, AND PAIN CAUSED BY US.
LET'S CHANGE TODAY, AND PLEASE OUR FATHER!
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