THE GIFT THAT KEEPS ON GIVING!

LAST YEAR THIS TIME I WAS MUMBLING, GRUMBLING AND COMPLAINING ABOUT THE FREQUENCY OF EMERGENCY ROOM VISITS, AND HOSPITAL STAYS NECESSARY FOR MY DAUGHTER.

THE TOLL OF TRANSPORTING, AND SPENDING TIME IN THE HOSPITAL HAD BECOME QUITE TAXING.

IT WAS EMOTIONALLY, AND PHYSICALLY FATIQUING, AND VERY, VERY SAD TO WATCH HER STRUGGLE THROUGH HER BATTLE AND NOT BE ABLE TO OFFER ANY COMFORT AS HER FATHER, AND SUPPOSED PROTECTOR.

MY LOVE FOR HER NEVER WANED, BUT THE FATIQUE, AND DISPAIR WAS BEGINNING TO MANIFEST AS FRUSTRATION, AND COMPLAINTS.

MY HANDS WERE TIED, WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO ?

SITTING AND WATCHING JUST ISN'T IN MY DNA. IT IS MY NATURE TO JUMP DIRECTLY IN THE FRAY, BELIEVING I CAN OFFER ASSISTANCE, AND RELIEF IN THE WORSE OF SCENARIOS.

FOR MANY YEARS I WAS A FIRST RESPONDER PROFESSIONAL FIGHTER AND I'M JUST BUILT TO HELP, TO RESPOND, AND TO RESCUE, BUT FOR MY DAUGHTER I WAS HELPLESS, RELOGATED TO ONLY TRANSPORT, AND TO VISIT, HOW FRUSTRATING!

BEING SO FRUSTRATED, MAGNIFIED MY FATIQUE, AND THAT LED TO COMPLAINING.

THIS YEAR WITH MY DAUGHTER HAVING PASSED, AWAY I WISHED SHE WERE HERE, AND IF I HAD STUMPS FOR LEGS, AND HAD TO CARRY HER TO AND FROM THE HOSPITAL ON MY BACK, I BELIEVE I WOULD SO WITHOUT A MURMUR OR COMPLAINT.

LAST YEAR I KNEW HOW DIFFICULT IT WAS TO LIVE WITH HER, AND HER DESEASE, BUT THIS YEAR I KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO LIVE WITHOUT HER.

MY DAUGHTER WAS BEAUTIFUL AND BEAUTIFULLY SAVED, AND I THANK GOD TO NO END FOR THAT, BECAUSE I KNOW SHE IS NO LONGER IN PAIN, AND WITH THE MASTER.

SHE HAS ALREADY RUN HER RACE, AND FINISHED HER COURSE, NOW HER DADDY MUST DO THE SAME.

CHRISTMAS WAS ALWAYS BIG IN OUR HOUSE, AND I ALWAYS WENT ALL OUT SEARCHING FOR THE VERY BEST GIFTS MY DAUGHTERS ASKED FOR, AND COST WAS NEVER A FACTOR.

NOW I SEE THE VERY BEST GIFT MY WIFE AND I EVER GAVE OUR DAUGHTERS WAS THE GIFT OF INTRODUCING THEM TO THE LORD FROM CHILDHOOD.

THIS WAS TRULY THE ONE GIFT WE GAVE THAT KEPT ON GIVING, EVEN TO THIS DAY.

THOUGH WE DON'T SEE HER, THE GIFT OF JESUS IS GIVING HER ETERNAL LIFE EVEN NOW!

TO THE VERY END, INSPITE OF HER PAIN AND SUFFERING, MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER OF 28 YEARS WAS PRAISING GOD IN HER WRITINGS, HER SONGS, AND MOST OF ALL HER LIFESTYLE THAT TOUCHED AND MOVED SO MANY, INCLUDING ME.

MY ONLY COMFORT IS IN KNOWING THAT THE FATHER OF ALL FATHERS NEVER MAKES A MISTAKE, AND HE SAW FIT TO END HER SUFFERING ON EARTH, CALLING HER TO FINALLY BE WHOLE, AND WITH HIM.

NOW SHE HAS EXPERIENCED TRUE FATHERLY LOVE, THE KIND THAT DOESN'T MUMBLE, COMPLAIN, OR GROW FRUSTRATED.

IF I RUN OUT OF EVERY REASON TO PRAISE GOD FOR MYSELF, I CAN ALWAYS FIND A PRAISE FOR HIM FOR WHAT HE DID FOR MY BABY, AND HOW HE' HAS SUSTAINED MY VERY SANITY THROUGHOUT THIS ALMOST 1 YEAR OF GRIEF, MOURNING, AND LOSS.

I'M NOT ASHAMED TO SAY THAT I'VE BEEN CRYING THE ENTIRE TIME I'VE BEEN TYPING THIS, AND I'M SURE I'LL CRY SOMEMORE, BUT MY TEARS ARE BECAUSE I MISS HER, AND THE OPPORTUNITY TO TELL HER THINGS I WISHED I HAD, OR TO SIMPLY EXPRESS THEM BETTER.

I IMAGINE GOD IS SIMPLY ALLOWING ME A SMATTERING OF HOW HE MUST GRIEVE, AND MOURN OVER US AS HIS CHILDREN.




2DAYS PROPHETIC ADMONITION:

GIVE THANKS TODAY LIKE IT IS YOUR LAST DAY ON EARTH

LIVE TODAY LIKE IT IS YOUR LAST DAY ON EARTH.

LOVE TODAY LIKE IT WAS YOUR LAST DAY ON EARTH.

FORGIVE TODAY LIKE IT IS YOUR LAST DAY ON EARTH.


HOW HELPLESS THE FATHER OF HEAVEN MUST FEEL, WHEN HE CAN ONLY TRANSPORT AND VISIT US, BECAUSE WE NEVER TRULY INVITE, OR ALLOW HIM INTO OUR LIVE'S.

LET'S GIVE OUR CHILDREN THE ONE GIFT THAT TRULY KEEPS ON GIVING, THAT GIFT IS JESUS.