LOSS HOPE BREEDS HOPE

WHEN BROKEN, TIRED, LOWLY, DISTRAUGHT AND HOPELESS BECOME UNDERSTATEMENTS IN OUR LIVES WE MUST FIND A THREAD OF PROMISE SOMEWHERE, AND SOMEHOW OR WE ARE DOOMED.

TODAY I HIT A BOTTOM I DIDN'T REALIZED EXISTED, BECAUSE I ALREADY BELIEVED MYSELF TO HAVE HIT THE LOWEST POINT OF DISPAIR.

FIGHT IS GONE, HOPE IS GONE, VISIONS HAVE FADED, EACH AND EVERY PLAUSIBLE ESCAPE IS GONE.

THOUGH PAUL INSTRUCTS US THAT "AFTER HAVING DONE ALL TO STAND" EVEN MY LEGS ARE GONE, TOO WEAK TO STAND EMOTIONALLY, PHYSICALLY, EVEN SPIRITUALLY, I AM ALL BUT COMPLETELY DEFEATED.

I NOW KNOW THAT EVEN THOUGH PAULS COMMANDMENT TO STAND WAS AN ANALOGY IT STILL WAS NOT INTENDED TO BE VIEWED AS THE MAJORITY OF SAINTS VIEW THIS PASSAGE TO STAND.

WE ENVISION A STRONG OPPOSING FORCE, AND OUR RESISTING IT BY STANDING IN, AND AGAINST IT, OR WE HEAR MENTION OF OUR INABILITY TO MOVE FORWARD
AND NOT DESIRING TO MOVE BACKWARD, SO WE THEREFORE INVOKE THE COMMAND TO STAND. BOTH OF WHICH ARE APPLICABLE, BUT NOT QUITE ACCURATE.

THE ACTUAL STAND THAT PAUL INSTRUCTS OF US IS NOT A PHYSICAL, OR EVEN A SPIRITUAL STANCE, BUT IT IS A STANCE UPON PRINCIPLE, PRECEPTS, AND MANDATES. IN SUMMATION IT IS A STANCE ON THE WORDS OF GOD.

THOUGH I STUDY GOD'S WORD, I AM NO BIBLICAL SCHOLAR. I PERHAPS KNOW JUST ENOUGH WORD TO SUSTAIN ME TO MAINTAIN MY SANITY, SOUL, AND SALVATION UNTIL GOD COMES FOR ME.

I AM NOT A PROPONENT OF GOD'S METHODOLOGY OF GETTING US WHERE WE NEED TO GET, BUT I AM ALSO NOT GOD, OR EVEN GODLY SO I SHOULD ASSUME THAT MY VALIDATION OF HIS MEANS IS OF ZERO INTEREST TO HIM.

I AM GATHERING, EVEN AS I AM WRITING THAT THIS VERY SAME METHODOLOGY THAT HAS BROUGHT ME TO SUCH A LOWLY MINDSET OF FATIQUE, DISPAIR, AND SPIRITUAL EXHUASTION IS THE MANNER IN WHICH MY OWN LUST, STUBBORN,
STIFFNECKED, REBELLIOUS, PRIDE FILLED FLESH DICTATES I REQUIRE IN ORDER TO BE SAVED.

GOD DIDN'T SEEK MY APPROVAL BECAUSE HE KNEW I LOVED SELF TO MUCH TO ALLOW ME TO SUFFER LIKE THIS THIS.

GOD ON THE OTHER HAND LOVES ME TO MUCH NOT TO INFLICT MY FLESH, AND VERY EXISTENCE, KNOWING THAT LEFT TO MY OWN DEVICES I WOULD HAVE OPTED FOR FLOWERY BEDS OF EASE, AND CAST MY OWN SOUL INTO HELL.

PRIOR TO THIS POINT IN MY LIFE I LOVED GOD, I LOVED HIS WORD AND HIS PEOPLE, I WAS A GOOD CHRISTIAN, BUT I ALSO SUBCONCIOUSLY LOVED LIFE, AND WHEN WE LOVE LIFE WE MUST INTURN LOVE THIS WORLD.

GOD NEVER INTENDED FOR US TO LOVE THIS WORLD.

NOW COMES OUR PROPHETIC REVELATION: WHAT SORT OF GOOD FATHER WOULD WANT THEIR CHILD TO PREFER THE NEIGHBORS HOUSE THAT THEY VISIT OVER THEIR OWN, THAT THEY FIXED UP THEIR BEDROOM JUST FOR THEM ETC....

GOD NEVER INTENDED US TO LIKE IT ON EARTH BETTER THEN IN HEAVEN WHERE HE'S PREPARED A PLACE FOR US.

(HEB 11:13) TELLS US THAT ALL OF THE FAITHFUL WHERE "PILGRIMS AND STRANGERS ON EARTH", JUST AS WE ARE TO BE.

SO THEN WE ARE NOT TO SEEK DEATH, BUT WE ARE TO LONG AFTER LIFE ETERNAL, WHICH IS IN HEAVEN, IN YOUR OWN PLACE, WITH YOUR FATHER THAT PROVIDED IT.

I CAN ATTEST TO THE FACT THAT MY EARTHLY SITUATION IS SUCH THAT I OF COURSE WOULD PREFER THINGS BE BETTER, BUT NOW I MUCH RATHER JUST GET BACK HOME WITH MY DAD.

MY DAD THAT LOVES ME ENOUGH TO HAVE LAID OUT A PREDESTINED PATH THAT I CAN FIND MY WAY, AND IS THEN STANDING IN THE DOOR LOOKING, AND AWAITING WITH ROBE AND FATTED CALF FOR THE PRODIGALS RETURN AFTER MY JOURNEY ON EARTH.



2DAYS PROPHETIC ADMONITION: REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE SO CALLED SPIRITUAL GIANTS WILL TELL US, IT IS POSSIBLE TO LOSE HOPE ON EARTH.

THINGS MAY NOT EVER IMPROVE FOR US DOWN HERE. OUR HEALTH MAY NEVER BE HEALED, WE MAY ALWAYS BE LIVING PAY CHECK TO PAYCHECK, OUR FAMILIES MAY NOT EVER BEHAVE, AND WE MAY NEVER BE EXCEPTED DOWN HERE.

WHAT WE NEED TO KNOW IS THAT PAUL KNEW THAT AND HIS INSTRUCTION TO STAND WAS A ADMONITION TO GATHER ALL OF THE WORD OF GOD WE CAN RETAIN, AND THEN TAKE A UNWAVERING STANCE ON IT'S AUTHENTICITY, AND EFFICACY.

THEN PLACE THE PRINCIPLES, PRECEPTS, AND MANDATES INTO PRACTICE, AND EVEN THOUGH WE MAY ALWAYS RECIEVE THE SHORT END OF THE STICK ON EARTH WE CAN MAINTAIN THE HOPE THAT DADDY IS IN THE DOOR WAITING FOR OUR RETURN HOME.

THIS WILL ENABLE US TO ENDURE ONE MORE DAY, BECAUSE WILL CEASE SEEKING REMEDY TO HEARTACHE, PAIN, AND SUFFERING ON EARTH HAVING REALIZED THAT
OUR ONLY GENUINE REMEDY LIES IN HEAVEN WHICH ACTUALLY IS OUR HOME.

MUST PEOPLE BELIEVE WE WILL BE GODS GUEST IN HEAVEN, FROM EARTH, BUT IN ACTUALITY WE ARE INVADERS TO EARTH.

WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS TRAPPED IN EARTHLY BODIES, AND SIN CAUSED US TO GET COMFORTABLE BELIEVING WE WERE HOME IN THIS FLESH.

THESE HOPE BREAKING PROCESSES FINALLY GET US TO LONGING FOR OUR REAL HOME.