DESPERATIONS LESSONS !! (MERCY'S SEAT)

THOUGH I DON'T FEEL AS THOUGH I'VE GOTTEN VERY FAR IN MY PURSUIT OF GODS FACE, OR COMPLETING HIS PREDESTINED ASSIGNMENTS IN MY LIFE, THE ROAD HAS NONETHELESS BEEN LONG AND ARDUOUS.

THIS JOURNEY HAS NOT ONLY BEEN LENGTHY, BUT IT HAS BEEN PAINFUL, LONELY, HEARTBREAKING, CONFUSING, AND COSTLY, VERY VERY COSTLY.

GOD HAS MANAGED TO REVEAL SO MUCH TO ME ALONG THE WAY. HE'S SHARED VISIONS, PROPHETIC ILLUMINATIONS, AND REVELATIONS IN HIS WORD, AND OF HIS CHURCH.

BUT, EVEN MORE THEN WHAT HE'S SHOWN ME, IS WHAT HE'S REVEALED IN ME. I'VE OFTEN HEARD THERE ARE TRULY NO OVERNIGHT SUCCESSES, AND I'M NOW PRONED MORE THENEVER TO AGREE.

I WAS FIRST INTRODUCED TO TEST AND TRIALS AS A CHILD OF 3 YEARS OF AGE, WHEN SATAN FIRST BEGAN ATTEMPTING TO SNUFF OUT MY EXISTENCE.

BY THE AGE OF 6 OR 7 I ENTERED THE WILDERNESS WHEN I BEGAN TO SEE DEMONS, AND SPIRITS SO CLEAR, AND VIVIDLY AS THEY'D WALK AROUND MY BEDROOM HEADING TOWARDS MY BED, KEEPING NOT ONLY MYSELF AWAKE , BUT MY MOTHER AS SHE'D ATTEMPT TO COMFORT AND CONVINCE ME THAT THEY WEREN'T THERE, BUT THEY WERE.

I HAVE NOW BEEN DWELLING IN SPIRITUAL CAVES FOR 14 YEARS NOW. ISOLATED, AND OVERLOOKED BY THE MINISTERIAL COMMUNITY FOR THE MOST PART.

ON OCCASION I'VE BEEN ALLOWED TO OPERATE, BUT NEVER IN THE WAY I WILL BE RELEASED TO MINISTER ONCE GOD HAS COMPLETED ME IN THESE CAVES, AND CALLS ME FORTH TO RELEASE THE FIRE AND ANOINTING THAT HAS TAKEN ALL OF THESE YEARS AND COST ME ALMOST EVERYTHING THAT I EVER COUNTED DEAR TO ME.

IN THE PROCESS OF HONING THE PROPHETIC, THE LORD ALLOWED ME AS HE DID DAVID, TO ENCOURAGE MYSELF IN THESE CAVES BY BIRTHING THE PSALMIST IN ME.

THE FOLLOWING IS A PSALM INSPIRED UPON ME SEVERAL YEARS AGO THAT I AM IMPRESSED TO SHARE WITH THOSE OF YOU THAT ARE IN THE SAME PLACE NOW THAT I WAS THEN, AND PERHAPS I REMAIN IN UNTIL THIS DAY.


DESPERATIONS LESSONS (MERCIES SEAT)

I THROW MYSELF AT YOUR FEET,
MY LIFE APPEARS TO UNRAVEL FROM BOTTOM TO TOP.
SUCH DESPERATION I'VE NEVER KNOWN,
OR EVEN HEARD OF.

I GNAW AT MY OWN LEG FOR FREEDOM,
FOR SATANS TRAP HAS TIGHTLY CLOSED UPON MY ANKLE.

A TRAP SO VICIOUS AND MERCILESS,
IT'S TEETH PIECERD MY FLESH, CRUSHING BONE.

I WRITHE IN PAIN, CERTAIN OF DEATH,
MY OWN BLOOD PUDDLES TO DROWN ME.

COULD THIS BE MY END?
TO PERISH ALONE,
ANOTHER VICTIM OF EVILS SNARE!

GOD FORBID !

THOUGH I DO NOT SEE YOU,
I TRUST YOU ARE THERE.

FOR YOUR WORD STATES;
YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE NOR FORSAKE ME.

AS SATAN LOOMS OVER ME,
PREPARINGS LIFES LAST BLOW;
SUDDENLY HE'S VANISHED.

WITHOUT A WORD, WITHOUT WARNING, WITHOUT VICTORY.

THOUGH STILL IN PAIN, I PEACEABLY LAY,
AWAITING RESCUE BY MY SAVIOR.

I FEEL THE WINDS OF HOPE, AND ANTICIPATION STIRRING,
AS THE LIGHT OF FAITH,
BRIGHTER THEN ANY SUN
RADIATES WITHIN;
BECAUSE YOU HAVE COME TO MY AID.

HAVING HEARD MY CRIES,
THROUGH THE WAILINGS OF COUNTLESS OTHERS TRAPPED,
YOUR LOVING HANDS FREE ME,
AS YOUR WORDS EASE MY SPIRIT.

MY WOUNDS YOU MEND,
BUT THE SCARS REMAIN.
BY THESE I LEARN COMPASSION.

NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO DESPERATE,
BUT IT IS IN THIS DESPERATION, THAT I FINALLY GAIN YOUR EAR.

NO MORE VAIN REPETITIONS,
OR SUPERFICIAL RAMBLINGS.

THOUGH I LIMP, I LIVE.
THROUGH MY WANTINGS, I GIVE.
I THROW MYSELF AT YOUR FEET,
FOR WHEREEVER YOU SIT,
IS MERCIES SEAT !


2DAYS PROPHETIC ADMONITION: LOOK FOR GOD IN ALL THAT WE ENCOUNTER, EXPERIENCE, AND ENDURE.

HE IS THERE, AND IT WILL BE FOR OUR MAKING, IF WE ALLOW IT.



I PRAY GOD'S PEACE N MERCY B UPON U AND URS !



G-TEP aka K.J. DUMPSON